Happy February, Bubbies! Valentine’s Day month! But most importantly, Chinese New Year month because, well, single life, yo! But also because red envelopes, yo! Oh and let’s not forget, Deadpool month! Too freaking excited for that.

January treated me fairly well. A lot of things have changed for me and I’ve grown a lot in just one month. Not sure how many people can say that but I truly believe I’m a different person than I was last year. I use to be more positive and upbeat and I want to go back to that. I just have to keep reminding myself that things happen for a reason. Nothing is bad because it’ll take you to the good, to where you need to be. 

I decided to pick up the things I love but haven’t done in a while. #littlethings Here’s an update on all I’ve completed this past month:

CROCHET | It’s been a while so I’m training my fingers again. Back to the basics. I’ve finished a single crochet scarf and currently on a double crochet baby blanket. It helps keep my mind off of things as I “watch” telly.

WRITE | Surprised I’ve blogged every day this past month. I didn’t plan it that way, but it just happened. I have nothing interesting to say so I’m not sure what I really posted.

READ | I’ve finished two books and currently reading one digital and one physical, and listening to an audio. I love being lost in the characters. Feeling their feelings feels much better than feeling my own feelings. Plus it gives you a whole new perspective on things that go on in your own life.

DRAW | I was cleaning and found my old drawings which almost always had words with it. They make me laugh. I’ve finished two drawings this past month. I still have issues with making realistic human drawings but practice makes somewhat perfect …

As you can see, I’m doing quite well in keeping my creative side of the brain going and I hope to add more lovely things going forward:

PAINT | I’m wanting to throw some down for some sky paintings. I miss those and they were always easy for me to conjure up even though the last one I ever did took me over three hours.

GUITAR | I’ve failed at putting in new strings. I still haven’t figured out which ones to buy since I want better quality than what I currently have. Plus last time I restrung my guitar, it snapped my face and I’m not sure I got over that fear yet.

SONGWRITE | I’m not good at this. I wish I was. But I still try. It’s easy for me to put words to paper but putting instrumentals to it is pretty tough for me. Maybe I’ll just do a cappella instead …

VIOLIN | Sissy and I dabbled on the only violin that was left standing in December. We bought new strings for the others but I haven’t put them on. It’s been a long time and I’m afraid I’m going to break them. Any volunteers to help a girl out?

KNIT | Fairly similar to crocheting but not. I use to knit more than I crochet so getting into it will probably be a bit easier for me than crocheting. Might be best to knit giant blankets in the future.

FITNESS | I miss having a scheduled workout plan. There are reasons for not starting but that’s a post for another day.

I hope I can continue through the year. Maybe I won’t complete as much as I did this past month, but it’ll still be something to celebrate.

If anyone is interested in doing any of the above with me, I’ll gladly accept the company. Maybe you can teach me a thing or two.

Until next time, 

Yesterday, the night sky gained another bright star. I was hoping it was all a joke. I still can’t wrap my head around it. You were one of the smartest people I know and doing so well for yourself. I’m going to miss those big eyes, beautiful smile, and gorgeous shiny hair. You have so much love surrounding you and you will be dearly missed. Rest in peace, Amy Strahan.

When your past comes back … literally.

The oh-yay, you’re back … but oh-crap!

My ex from my freshman year of college reached out to me again last week. He does it every once in a while. We didn’t end on bad terms. I always did the friends first method of dating and tried doing the not knowing each other first part. He was the first person I dated without being friends first and it didn’t go anywhere. I’m not good at dating people I don’t know. I’ve tried it probably twice my whole life and it just … didn’t work for me. Friends first has always been easier for me (though hesitant because that’s how you lose them if it doesn’t work out) because I am able to be myself without worry that person would run away. So even though every year he reaches out, it makes me worry he still wants to try. The questions he asks and the way he says some things makes me think so. And since I never had that emotional connection with him, it’s hard to jump right back in and I know I won’t ever be able to. I hope he feels it too. I hope he knows that I’ll always be here for him, but I don’t know if I can be someone he wants me to be for him. It’s still nice to see he’s doing well though.

The oh-yay, you’re back!

A two hour phone call with an old friend last night. TWO HOURS. We hadn’t talked in years and lately we’ve been trying to catch up through text messages and figured a phone call would be easier. So much easier it was. We caught up from the last time we talked until now and it’s just so much stuff. YEARS of stuff. Unending. But we finally had to say our goodbyes since we were both getting sleepy. Friendships that are so easy to pick up where we left off. Those are the ones that you cherish and know will be there for you even with years to come.

My wish this Wednesday …

… is not to lose any more people in my life. If we drift apart, we keep in touch. I know it has to be both parties willing else it won’t work. So all I hope is that both parties will always be willing to do so. Even if it’s years later, I promise, I’ll always be here. No matter how we ended up not speaking to one another. No matter how bad you’ve treated me. I wanted you in my life then, and I’ll always want you in my life no matter how long it’s been.

I think Emily Osment put it best when she got asked why she still tries to be friends with someone who doesn’t want to be their friends.

You don’t give up on friends. You wait, years maybe, but you don’t ever give up.

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Oy vey. This Monday was hellish due to being so tired from the previous week and weekend. I definetly did not have enough downtime to recharge.

I got asked by a few people if everything was okay. They didn’t believe me when I said nothing was wrong. I guess I looked sad or had a bitch face on when really … I just wanted to sleep. Out late Sunday night and long day of conversations at work make for a very tired moi. I even skipped the studio to take a nap and work … my new life is grand!

Quick recap of a very filled friends week/weekend. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. I will probably make a day to myself though because … drained as fu**.

Monday

Phrolic is to have a concert Sunday night so Sebastian met up with me at Michael’s so I can buy some tickets off of him. He strolled with me for a bit in Michael’s while we caught up and helped me pick out yarn for my projects. It was nice to see him outside of whatever group thing we usually do.

Tuesday

Mallory and I went to Bingo Night at Proud Pie. We only did four of the games and left. No winners but we didn’t care. There was a little girl there that looked like she was about to cry because she only had one number left but someone called out bingo. Poor kid.

Wednesday

Michelle and I met up at Bernie’s Burger Bus which they now have a indoor location in Katy. I remember the food truck coming to our work campus and we got to order but this was a totally different experience … better in my opinion. I haven’t seen Michelle since last year and we spent hours catching up. Matt was in town and I didn’t mind if he came with but Michelle told him to stay home which I was actually happy about in the end because there were a lot of personal stuff we ended up talking about. Things like … will you ever feel more for someone than the previous. Because right now, it doesn’t feel like it’s possible.

Thursday

Deadpool tickets and seats have been reserved. If you don’t know me, I’m a lover for Deadpool. Supes excited. And don’t worry, Row 1 doesn’t mean front row in this theater. I got it for a discount too since Groupon was doing a deal. Always check for deals, y’all!

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Friday

Lunch plans fell through but I didn’t mind because I got to go home and spend some time with Rizzo. Met up with Apurva and we went and watched Sisters. If you haven’t seen it, go watch it because it was fu**ing hilarious. I couldn’t stop laughing. These two chicas definitely know how to make us laugh. Afterward we just walked around and caught up. It was a very chill day and I was drained from the work week to engage in much other than that so we said goodbye after a long while. Next time we hang out though, it’ll be better planned.

Saturday

It was 30 degrees when I left the house to drop Rocky and Rizzo at the vet at 7am. They were both shaking. Poor babies. Upon picking them up a few hours later we saw a dog adoption going on and I wanted to get them all. There was a super cute black lab that I wanted to take home. She was adorable!

Mum, June, and I went to IHop for breakfast then I went and got my haircut. You probably can’t see a difference but 4 inches were cut off. My hair lady says that my hair grows very fast and that it feels very healthy. WIN! 🙂 Does make me hesitant to color/highlight/lowlight my hair though. I really want that purple! Ugh!

I took the fams to Sushi 9 – the all you can eat sushi buffet I talked about before. And they all loved it. I’m poor now but .. at least they love it. haha I am pretty sure the servers were annoyed we ordered so much .. and finished it all. We are beasts … or at least my dad is.

I sent this picture to some friends and they thought I was on a date. Which was exactly what I wanted them to think. HA … but in reality I went to Alyssa’s and we turned on the fire pit, opened some champagne, and spent some time with some girls. Cody was out of town so she was all down for girls night. All the girls I met works where I work and only one worked for another company. It was nice meeting new people and just talking nonsense. Hope we get to do this again because it was perfect.

Sunday

Phrolic – Sebastian and Vince – had a performance at Warehouse Live. They’re moving on up! It’s always a high school reunion for me when I go to their shows since we all know each other from then. Matt, Michelle’s husband, was in town and he hadn’t seen some people in a long, long time so for him, it was a super big reunion. I’m glad he got to see Vince and spend some time with him.

After the show, we went to Neil’s Bar and they had Yaki Snack Attack food truck right outside. I died. I was either super hungry or the food was freaking amazing. I’m going with the latter. Very rare do I get to try out a food truck so I try to take any chance I have. Thankful I did.

We spent a couple of hours just catching up with everyone and it was nice. I know I’ve said that throughout the whole post. Catching up and it was nice …. but it really is. We’re all so busy now it’s hard to get together so I cherish it all.

It’s been a super heartfelt few days and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I know I probably won’t see a lot of these people for awhile but when we see each other again, it’ll be another great time in the books and I cannot wait.