Friday night, June and I decided to watch telly together. It’s been a while since I’ve watched anything on the telly or listened to any music since it triggers me about Scruffy. But I took the chance and watched Bachelorette on Netflix. There were parts that broke me in the movie but if I was able to laugh at certain parts then I would be okay. We started watching OCTB as well, a Hong Kong drama on Netflix. Those few hours helped me through and after a phone call with Patricia, I was able to fall asleep.

Saturday morning Sissy came over and we, along with June, went and got pedicures. Then we went home and picked up Grandma for Sushi 9.

Priscilla was nice enough to entertain me in the afternoon since she knew I needed distractions. When I got to her place we went and picked up her phone that was getting fixed then to HEB to buy groceries to make dinner. Stuffed salmon and asparagus is still one of my favourite meals. Instead of crab we got lobster. Equally perfect.

I’m not a big lover of tres leches but I will say HEB makes a pretty good one for cheap.

We ended up watching random things then finally, Red Sparrow. It was a good movie and kept my mind of off things. Then we just had girl talk.

It hasn’t been a year of knowing her but we click and I’m thankful that even though I was depressed at my old job, she was the best thing that came out of it.

All Sunday I’ve been relaxing the best I can , watching OCTB with June when we can, and am thankful for those that have picked up the phone to talk nonsense to me so that I can think about nothing for a bit.

I’m currently at Sissy’s. Tomorrow I fly out to see Apurva and then a couple of days after, Liliana. I am excited to see them both as it’s been a long time. Road trip here we come!

On my drive to Sissy’s I realized some things. For eight months I made this gruesome drive to and from downtown for work. I guess I never really knew how tired and overworked I was spending over three hours in traffic daily sometimes. I mean, you’d think the horrible car accident would have been a red flag but I’m thankful I’m alive.

One of the things I realized these last few months was how depressed I was at that job. The drive, feeling like my career was a dead end and I wasn’t amounting to anything, and driving to Scruffy’s almost every weekend and even some weekdays. I would always want to take a nap whenever I got to his house so that I could give him 100% when I was refreshed. I remember him getting angry at me for taking naps when I was there to see him and I’ve realized that he never took the time to realize or even ask how I was doing.

I guess that’s where it took a toll on me. I tried so hard to give everyone 100% that I forgot about myself. No one was giving me 100%. I didn’t have alone time. I didn’t have time to recharge. I felt like my world was crumbling and I couldn’t do it anymore. I just needed a break from reality because no one understood me. And I knew only I can help myself.

This job is also pretty gruesome with the hours I put in but I feel like I matter and that I am actually putting in hours where value is added. My ideas are being heard and things are actually going better than I expected. I’ve always been a workaholic and being able to actually prove myself in that front helps.

Today was my Boss’ birthday. Wacko, Erin, Chris, Phil and I decided to take her out to celebrate since we’ve been so busy we haven’t really had time to relax. She suggested Sylvia’s near work and my goodness … they made one of the best carne asada I’ve ever had! So freaking tender! We got the waiters to surprise her and sing happy birthday so that was a fun memory we had especially since she was really freaked out about it.

Here’s to more happy memories.

Stay Positive & Think Good Thoughts!

I’ve been listening to an audiobook that someone suggested which I’m hoping to finish by the end of the trip. Fingers crossed so that I can add finishing my second book this year. I’m behind due to such a busy first few months with work being so demanding and new. It’s still tough but I’m finding time when I can.

This popped up on my Facebook memories today. It’s funny how everything came back full circle over the same guy.

Less than two days and I’ll be reunited with Apurva and Liliana. Can’t wait to see these two. It’s been so long!

No volunteering tonight so it was finally time with Mallory! Everything worked out since she’s usually busy on Thursday’s.

By the time I got to her house food was already available along with a bottle of wine. I’m thankful for her always.

Having times like these with them melts my heart. This boy is growing up so fast it’s crazy and I’m glad I get to be along for the ride. I cannot wait to see all he’s going to accomplish.