Found this gear at the FTK room. Why was it there? No one knows. But it’s funny.

Today on the way home, a friend of mine said that in fourth grade he asked a girl to the prom (because they have proms at that age?) and she said she couldn’t go with him because “He looks like toasted bread.” Meaning he was a dark Mexican. So funny. My other friend who was in the car at the time rolled on the floor laughing when we reminisced about it.

My Life Is A Broom. Or so my friend Shayna says. Like her artistic skills? If I could even start to explain. You would think triangles were confusing … just look at this broom.

I’m off to watch The Blind Side. Time to cry.

Tomorrow’s another long day. And having to face certain people will be hard. Here we go.

Hope your Friday goes well!

FTK Co-Rec Soccer is in the Playoffs and we won our game tonight! Whoop! I played a little bit but with shin splints and all it was hard so I was sad but we did great!

And now onto Thankful Thursday!

I’m thankful I got to go to THON. I got to see things that not many people have a chance to see. I am hoping I can go next year to relive it again. Fingers crossed! I probably can’t go with the group again since I would have graduated but maybe a reunion or something?

I am thankful I am alive. I tend to think about a lot of things when I drive. Most of the time when I’m quiet, I’m thinking about something. Driving or not. Good or bad. I drove to a lot of places today that gave me time to think that I almost got into, give or take, 5-7 car accidents. I actually rammed into a stone wall while backing out tonight after taking someone home. Yes, it was that bad.

I’m thankful I have friends like Shayna and Patrica. I’m sitting in their living room watching the telly and typing this out while they are asleep. Yes, another schedule post written in the past! We had a girl’s night. Much needed for all of us. We drank wine and watched Criminal Minds so I could stop thinking about everything while I worked on some FTK stuff … of course. I’m not able to tell them all the little details of things but I’m able to tell the gist since they were kind of there for everything.

I’m thankful for my FSA big, Rex. I bumped into him in the halls today and he knew something was wrong because I wasn’t smiling for the first time. I didn’t tell him anything and insisted I was not sad. But with his hug, tears welled in my eyes. There are so many people who are there for me when I least expect it, yet I’m never able to open up.

I am thankful for my siblings. Given I don’t tell them anything that goes on with me but if I get a text or a message on Facebook, just seeing it makes my day. Especially when they send me cute pictures of their doggies, aka my nephews. I cannot wait too meet my newest nephew! I’m not sure if they decided to change his name or not but he’s two years old. Sissy, Brett, and Ross got him at the pound.

There are other things I’m thankful for of course. The list can go on. But right now, those are what holds dear to my heart.

I hope everyone has a Thankful Thursday! Think of all the good that you have and the bad will slowly disappear, hopefully.

Did you ever felt so hurt that your heart is in pain? I’m pretty numb about everything but for some reason today, talking to various people, I realized that it’s possible with everything that happened. I was asked why I don’t open up and I don’t understand how he can’t see the reason when it was all around us. At the end of all of this, I will be stronger. Just when I thought I was able to start opening up and letting my wall down, someone had to come and make me build my wall up even higher.

I wanted a guy’s point of view of things that were going on so I texted Travis, “I need someone to converse with if possible”. This was at 11:30pm, when he usually studies. Next thing I know he was on Facebook Chat. Then at my door when he realized this was a face-to-face conversation. We talked for a little over 2 hours. Given we talked about random things at times, he was able to give me opinions about the situation and about the people involved. It’s nice to know he’ll kick someone’s ass if I ever ask for it. Brother Bear to the rescue. He has class at 7:30am and he stayed up talking to me. That’s a real friend. And I hope I’ll never lose him.

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brushed my teeth anyway.
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.

Because of all of this, I didn’t want to come home. I didn’t want to deal with anything. But of course, life goes on. And it’s just another thing we have to learn from. No more emo posts for a while after this. I just needed to get it out.

Penn State brought me and a friend even closer than before. While driving her home and talking, she was able to share something that she’s only shared with one other person here at UTSA. That means a lot to me. It made me understand why she is how she is. And for her to trust me with that information … indescribable feeling.

I hope everyone’s having a good week! It’s hump day! We’re halfway there!

I said I would tell you why my weekend began on Monday night.

I will be heading to Penn State soon! There is an organization there called THON which is where FTK derived from.

Their Dance Marathon is this weekend and I’m excited to experience it with some amazing people.

I hope I get to see real live snow!!

Katrina went with me to Wal-Mart to buy last minute things for THON and she decided to pick up some cupcakes.

When I asked her which princess I would be, she said something funny … but rude.

Gary came over and they hung out with me while I packed.

Picture of Gary wanting to go to THON with me.

I wish everyone I love in FTK was going with me. It would so much better. But I’ll make do with the people I have.

Then we, along with Andrew C. and Lisel, went to eat at Buffalo Wild Wings. Had a good time with them and sad I won’t get to see them for the next five days!

Trisha came over and gave me 100 songs to listen to while on my trip. I’m excited! I love new music!!

Then Travis helped me with my luggage and drove me to Shayna’s and Patricia’s so that I wouldn’t have to leave it here over the weekend. We have decided not to sleep … but they have dozed off next to me. Shayna and her mum are driving us to the airport at 3:30am.

Eepp! We’re almost there! My eyes are getting heavy!

I guess you could say my weekend started Monday after 7:30pm when we found out the other team wasn’t going to show up for our FTK Co-Ed Soccer game. I’ll tell you more about why my weekend has started this early at a later post.

Today has been a pretty eventful day. I woke up with a text from Jenny saying to grab a donut on the way out. I’m not a fan of donuts but I like sprinkles. I ate the one in the middle on the right because it was a better looking heart than the other two.

I went to school and a friend and I did a storyboard for a video we’re wanting to shoot that has to do with skydiving. It’s pretty simple. Not too in depth. Most of it is just in our heads. Then I went to class to where I didn’t have to be at since I rescheduled my test.

Went to the bank to get moolah then headed home and relaxed with Jenny and Deana. Travis came over and he ate the chocolate heart shaped donut and we all read horoscopes, watched YouTube videos, and hung out.

Took a one hour nap. Then headed over to Shayna’s and Patricia’s. It was Girl’s Night. To be exact … Single Girl’s Night.  I think one of them has a boyfriend though.

Before anyone else came over, Shayna, Patricia, and I talked about guys. Bahaha Typical, right? What is girl’s night without some talk about guys …

Flor and Patricia’s friend, Jocelyn, came over. We ate Alfredo Pasta with broccoli, carrots, cucumber, and tomatoes. With half a yam. I love yams. Yams, yams, yams.

And we drank wine. I’m not a wine lover but this was actually pretty good. Patricia drank pretty much the whole bottle.

We also had another bottle of wine but I didn’t like it.

Then we all had some chocolate covered strawberries and watched Our Family Wedding. I asked for a sad movie where either people die at the end or a relationship doesn’t work out. But they picked a cutesy funny one that made me wish I had a boyfriend. BOOO …

Anyway, I hope your Valentine’s Day was as great as mine … surrounded by people I love.