Mellie Dee ♥

Factory resetting my PS4 to sell. I haven’t used it since Scruffy and I broke up. I remember buying a new car and a PS4 when I knew I was going to get laid off soon which I wrote about in a post.

I told everyone it was to spend more time with BIL and sometimes Sissy but it was truthfully so that I can spend time with Scruffy. I knew he played a lot of video games so I wanted to spend time with him doing something he loved.

In the beginning, we’d play a bit but it ended up just me usually playing by myself or using it to watch telly since he wasn’t super interested in playing with me no matter how much I asked him to pick a game we can both play. I guess sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you can never be a part of someone’s life if they won’t let you in completely.

Goodbye, PS4. You gave me some great memories. Maybe one day, I’ll have someone who’ll want to play PS5 with me. Until then, it’s me and my Switch.

Yesterday I had the pleasure of working from home. Rizzo’s head is so tiny next to that giant paper of goals. I’m starting to feel like the assistant to the boss. I mean, I love scheduling meetings and running them, okay that’s a lie, I hate meetings. But I don’t mind the work as it helps me be a stronger speaker but it’s all so nervewracking when everyone thinks you’re “in charge” when you shouldn’t be. Luckily the boss set them straight that I was tasked so whatever I said kinda goes.

I’d look over to this sleeping beauty who put himself under the blanket, head on the pillow. I also kept seeing him slowly inching towards my side of the bed. He looks so peaceful. I keep having thoughts of how I’d be if he was gone from my life. Does anyone else get those moments with their pets or kids? Is that weird?

Today, June, Dad and I met Sissy and BIL at Happy Lamb Hot Pot. June and I have sworn off eating anything else the rest of the day because even though we didn’t eat a whole lot, it was still way more than what we’re used to lately.

The weekend’s almost over. I’m not ready!