Mellie Dee ♥

I cannot for the life of me fall asleep which is horrible. First day of classes starts and if I don’t sleep now, I more than likely will later .. during class. I am the world’s worst student. I finally get to take only 13 hours this semester and sadly, three out of those five classes will eat me alive.

I’ve been writing again and they are still as painful to share now than before. I think one day I’ll be able to do so though. And hopefully taking guitar as a class this semester will give me more skills to finish all those songs I’ve started. I’ve only finished one song and it’s fairly short. I’ve played it to one friend and it moved her so much that she cries. It’s a sad song but I  guess I should be happy that she can relate to my music.

I don’t share much of my problems here on the blog nor in real life to people I know because I don’t like burdening people with my thoughts. So when I do write about it, and you guys listen, it means a lot. Thanks for the emails and comments and encouraging words. Things have already gotten better. I’ve called his family to let them know what’s going on and he’s getting the help he needs.

We all have a story to tell.
Whether we whisper or yell.
We all have a story, of adolescence and all it’s glory.
We all have a story to tell.

-He Is We

I had a great night celebrating a new friend’s birthday and meeting so many people. What wasn’t so great is smelling like smoke. Yuck.

I’ve been doing some exercises to build up strength in my foot from when I fractured it. Seems to be going well so far except from when I try to stretch it out … that’s when it hurts. I cannot wait until the day I can start running again.

One more day until school starts. Eeep! So excited.

Oh! And my VitaCost stuff just came to my door! I have food now! Yayyyy!! ha My friends make fun of how happy I get when I buy and receive my organic food. Weirdo right hurr!

The Sunbutter looks a little shady though with no wrapping around the jar. Hope it tastes good though! It’ll be my first. Eeep!

I’m missing four things on the list soooo hopefully it’ll come soon! Ah can’t wait!

Oh Texans. You disappointed me. But it was a good game with a rookie quarterback and no Mario Williams. Didn’t give up. I still love you though. We’ll get them next year when Matt Schaub is back.

My Uncle called me and we watched part of the game for a little bit but I had to hang up on him. We realized I had a 7 second lag. So every time something happened, he was already yelling, screaming, or cursing. Yeah … he gave it all away.

Last night I was told I was one of the guys since I like to play and watch sports. In which I replied with, “I don’t think that’s a good thing.” Guys want a girl. Not a guy. So maybe that’s where I go wrong. Hmm ..

And I was also hinted that I’m not a good singer. Which makes me sad. I hope he was kidding. Everyone else tells me my singing voice is not bad. So either everyone’s been lying to me and he’s the first to tell me the truth or vice versa.

No more depressing posts … at least no more for a while.

I had a chill night watching movies and hanging out with different people.

Having phone calls and skype calls with friends I haven’t talked to and to the one I mentioned on the last post.

Then playing the guitar and singing my heart out.

Yep. Just what I needed.

School starts in a few days and I am no where ready.

I was given three books to read to where I read … none. Great.

But onto better news. I worked out today. It feels good.

And I watched The Dark Knight. It was a very good movie but it was sad. Sucks for everyone that died. I cry too dang much.

Tonight will be another relaxing night. Just how I like it!

Hope you all have a great weekend!

This break I found out something I didn’t have to know – didn’t want to know. Knowing sucks. Sometimes it’s not so great when someone trusts you enough. Especially when it involves cutting.

The only thing I can do is do everything in my might to make you stop which means texting you all the time to make sure you have someone to talk to and trusting you when you tell me you aren’t cutting.

My life flipped upside down yesterday because of you. But all I can do is put on a happy face and pretend everything is okay.

Going out last night with the boys and tonight for Sarah’s birthday should have taken my mind off of you and your problems but I worry. I worry that you might fall back into the same routine.

Today I wished I could take a day off from being everyone’s psychiatrist sometimes. Especially when I’m going through my own things. Things that I put on padlock because sometimes I feel my problems aren’t as important as everything in the world.

Who can I talk to when knowing is too much? Who can I tell my problems too?

I cannot fix everyone’s problems no matter how much I wish I could. I hope that it can be different with you but you’re making it harder and harder with each passing minute …