Mellie Dee ♥

Car Shopping

January 29, 2012 by Mellie Dee 2 Comments

I set out to Houston bright and early and throughout the whole 3 hour car ride all by my lonely self, I cried.

I started thinking about Eric’s Mum … leading me to think of Uncle N. and how he’ll never see me do all the things I’ve grown up to do. I always tell myself it’s a privilege to be alive. To have so many people in and out of my life. People who love tolerate me and my issues.

I cried because I was sad that there are so many people who I wish was still in my life but I also cried because I was happy that there are so many people who are still here for me and I know will never leave.

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Onto happier news. I played around with Rocky, showered, then headed out for a 7 hour car shopping experience. Car Shopping = Boring! We ended up buying a brand new SUV which was actually my 3rd choice. It’s not a well known brand but it gets me from place to place.

I’m slowly falling in love with it. I got to drive it to Sugar Land to see family since it’s a new year. I cannot wait to have it all to myself. Till then, it’ll stay at home so that it gets a good mileage and an oil change before I do long drives.

I got to eat dinner with the parentals, June, Sissy, and Uncle G. It was fun and I am happy I made my way down here even though this Houston trip only equals to less than 24 hours.

Love Life.

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January 28, 2012 by Mellie Dee 2 Comments

I’ve known him for five years. The first day we met, he was able to share with me a secret: his Mum has cancer. For someone who’s going through with a lot, he stays strong. I look up to him. Someone who puts himself through school and helps out around the house. All while keeping positive and never giving up on anything.

His Mum past away last week but now she’s no longer in pain. She’s free. And I know she has left a mark in everyone’s hearts that she has touched.

Eric, though I was never formally introduced to your Mum, everyone always said the best things about her to the point where I felt like I knew her. Always know I’m there for you and your family. I am always here with a shoulder to lean on, ears to listen to your words, and a heart that will forever love you and all that you do. You’ve inspired me in ways that I cannot explain. You have been an amazing friend to me and all I can do is be there for you in this time of need. My thoughts go to you and your family.

Vulnerability

January 28, 2012 by Mellie Dee Leave a Comment

Last night I went out with Andrew C. and Billy and it was amazing. Only because I got to see so many other people that we didn’t even know was going to be at Wild West. It was one of the best nights I’ve had.

But I also made a bet that I wouldn’t talk to Andrew C. from Friday (today) till Sunday. So far, so good. Only because he really did hurt my feelings from something he said. Joke or not. Drunk or not.

Note to self: Do not drink the day before Vocals class.

Today in Leadership Challenge class we went around in a circle and said what that person has been blessed with a gift. Things like that person has: heart, courage, emotions, that they: care, love, give, never take, etc. It was one of the best lessons. I learned a lot about how people see me and how others see one another.

I’ve always been a vulnerable person but to show it, that’s a weakness and so I try my best not to cry or show I care. But no matter how much of the tough girl act I show, they can see right through me and they find me crumbling in the palm of their hands during that class.

I. Cry. Like. A. Baby.

A group of us went out to eat afterward and it was just so wonderful to be in their presence. To know that together we are stronger.

Heartaches and mistakes,
How many hits can a good girl take?
I’m tired of hurting, slowly learning.
Irate you’re too late.
Look at the mess that you’ve created.
♥ He Is We

Rain, Rain, Go Away

January 25, 2012 by Mellie Dee 2 Comments

The weather outside is frightful. At least, it sounds frightful. I’ve been hating on the rain because I hate having to walk in it and end up soaking wet and cold while I’m sitting in class. And now that I have to lug my guitar every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, it would be nice of Mother Nature not to torture me.

When I made my schedule for my classes this semester, I thought I would have a lot of down time to do things I’ve always wanted to do but never got to … like my social life. It’s non-existent still, thanks to FTK. But I’m hoping I can change that soon. FSA is about to start up again and practices and stuff will begin. I’m excited. Just hope I can do it all.

I just read through 500+ blog posts on Google Reader. I’m sure you understand if you did not receive a comment or something. I enjoyed all the posts though and hate that it takes me forever to get to them.

I’ve made my breakfast, lunch, and dinner for tomorrow. Is it terrible that I wished it was already tomorrow at those times so that I could chow down? No? Good.

You should all listen to the “He Is We” station on Spotify. I am in love with it!

Hope hump day goes well for you all. I will be in school for a long, long time. Eeep!

Happy Chinese New Year!

January 23, 2012 by Mellie Dee 2 Comments

Yesterday was my brother’s last day being in town. We went and ate lunch at Longhorn Steakhouse – recap on the food on a later post! Then we went home and just chilled a bit before he had to leave.

I then met up with some FTKers and we went to another FTKer’s house to film a video! We will show you the video when it’s done. It’ll be epic. … I hate that word but it works. Open-mouthed smile

And finally! It’s Chinese New Year! Year of the Dragon! It’s going to be a long day for me but I hope it will be a good day.

I hope you have a blessed Monday! Open-mouthed smile