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Just A Little Bit Stronger

February 22, 2012 by Mellie Dee 2 Comments

Did you ever felt so hurt that your heart is in pain? I’m pretty numb about everything but for some reason today, talking to various people, I realized that it’s possible with everything that happened. I was asked why I don’t open up and I don’t understand how he can’t see the reason when it was all around us. At the end of all of this, I will be stronger. Just when I thought I was able to start opening up and letting my wall down, someone had to come and make me build my wall up even higher.

I wanted a guy’s point of view of things that were going on so I texted Travis, “I need someone to converse with if possible”. This was at 11:30pm, when he usually studies. Next thing I know he was on Facebook Chat. Then at my door when he realized this was a face-to-face conversation. We talked for a little over 2 hours. Given we talked about random things at times, he was able to give me opinions about the situation and about the people involved. It’s nice to know he’ll kick someone’s ass if I ever ask for it. Brother Bear to the rescue. He has class at 7:30am and he stayed up talking to me. That’s a real friend. And I hope I’ll never lose him.

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brushed my teeth anyway.
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.

Because of all of this, I didn’t want to come home. I didn’t want to deal with anything. But of course, life goes on. And it’s just another thing we have to learn from. No more emo posts for a while after this. I just needed to get it out.

Penn State brought me and a friend even closer than before. While driving her home and talking, she was able to share something that she’s only shared with one other person here at UTSA. That means a lot to me. It made me understand why she is how she is. And for her to trust me with that information … indescribable feeling.

I hope everyone’s having a good week! It’s hump day! We’re halfway there! Smile

2012 Penn State Trip | Day 5

February 21, 2012 by Mellie Dee 2 Comments

Time to head home.

But before home, where else would we go for breakfast but to The Corner?

YUM!

We headed back to the hotel. Finished packing. Then went on our 3+ hour bus ride to Baltimore Airport. Where we had lunch and then we waited for 2+ hour before boarding our airplane.

Funny story: I thought I lost my ticket so when I got to the table, the lady told me I had to find it or buy another ticket. I freaked out, everyone called our advisors, and in the end … I found my ticket. And then the lady said it was a joke and she could of fixed it for us. Jerk much? Anyway, I got made fun of the rest of the trip which I don’t mind because it was a little funny and I feel a whole lot of stupid.

We were on the plane for a good 1+ hour until we landed in the Tennessee Airport. Waited for people to board on and then we went on our 2+ hour trip to San Antonio.

Coming back was a relief. I was so tired sitting down. But now I’m so tired all around.

Going on this trip was a privilege not many people have. If you ever get the chance, I advise you to go and have fun! It’s seriously a great experience and it will change your life.

I didn’t want to come home because things up there were simpler. And let’s not forget, not having to study was a plus though maybe I should have. I also didn’t want to come back because of some things that I’m scared about and that now I have to take care of.

It’s been a great trip and I wouldn’t of had it any other way. Some of the people I went with are amazing. They love and live for things like this. I’ve made new memories and bonded closer to some friends. Unforgettable.

Tonight,
We are young.
So let’s set this world on fire.
We can burn brighter,
Than the sun.

2012 Penn State Trip | Day 4

February 21, 2012 by Mellie Dee Leave a Comment

We went back to The Corner for breakfast. Nom! This place is so good.

This was the last few hours before the reveal of how much money they raised For The Kids this year. There was no open seats at the BJC. Look how gorgeous the sea of color is!

And look how much they raised! $10.6 million. Sheesh! It’s unbelievable how much people can do when they band together.

To be there … to feel the crowd. You can’t even explain it.

We all went to:

The Allen Street Grill
100 West College Ave
State College, Pennsylvania
(814) 231-4745

Free bread and butter. So delicious.

Pesto Chicken [grilled chicken breasts topped with spinach and pine nut pesto, finished in the oven and served with garlic whipped potatoes and steamed vegetables] | $14.95

This place is pricey but I was full after eating all of that. The chicken was a bit dry though and the vegetables weren’t cooked all the way. To fix that, I dunked them in ketchup and everything tasted better. Winking smile

Marisol and I went to Starbucks then went to the Hotel Lobby and wrote a song for Andy. It was fun and it’s definitely a memory that will last forever.

Last day, Day 5. Keep a lookout.

2012 Penn State Trip | Day 3

February 20, 2012 by Mellie Dee Leave a Comment

For breakfast we went to:

The Waffle Shop
1610 West College Ave
State College, Pennsylvania
(814) 235-1816

Belgian Waffle with four sausage links [golden brown, light and airy, the one and only] | $6.95 One Egg | $0.95 Our Own Famous Home Fries | $1.95

The waffle bland but still delicious nonetheless. I ate it with my ketchup. Like usual. The food was not bad at all but it was very greasy and made my stomach feel disgusting afterward.

Which was not a good idea at all because it was time for the THON 2012 Tour.

We got to go down on the dance floor and see everything from the dancers’ point of view. I didn’t want to leave. So much excitement!

My friend is a Hospitality Captain and was working on the dance floor during this time but sadly, with all the people, I wasn’t able to see her. Sad smile

We went to the dancer alley and saw such inspiration. The dancers get to see who they do it for. There were so many down the hall. But it makes sure the dancers get pumped up enough.

We also got to see where the captains hang out. They have designated sleeping times and rooms. Just look at that spreadsheet. It’s crazy how everything is done. The person’s name is even on there so if you miss your time, you don’t get to sleep.

We took a few pictures with some Star Wars characters. Smile

A few of us went to:

Jersey Mike’s Subs
4123 Washington Road
McMurray, Pennsylvania
(724) 942-0202
www.jerseymikes.com

Grilled Veggie Wrap [grilled peppers and onions, melted swiss and provolone, lettuce, tomato, and home-style ranch dressing] | $6.45

I got it to go so that we could head back to the hotel and get an hour and a half rest time before having to head back.

It was very delicious but I wished they didn’t drench it with dressing. It was slimy sticky!

We headed back at 6pm for the 10pm Pep Rally session. But before that began, they got us doing some Yoga so everyone can stretch out. They think of EVERYTHING!

It’s amazing how much spirit Penn State has. I mean, I know they are a big school and it’s been established. But standing there in that Center, you feel like you are a part of them. Freaky to say but I did do one of their chants. I’m an imposter.

I don’t even remember what we did that night. I think we just sat around and chilled since we were so tired.

Day 4 … coming up next.

2012 Penn State Trip | Day 2

February 18, 2012 by Mellie Dee 4 Comments

For breakfast, we went to:

The Corner
100 West College Avenue
State College, Pennslyvania 16801
(814) 237-3051
www.cornerroom.com/individual.php?id=2

I stole one of Cindy’s homefries. It was so delicious!

Corner Special [three buttermilk pancakes, two eggs, and your choice of bacon, ham steak or sausage] | $7.25

It was so good. The only thing I didn’t like was the eggs. They were funky tasting.

Everyone made fun of how I eat my pancakes. I usually don’t dip them with anything and eat them plain. I don’t use butter or syrup either.

But today I was a little weird and dipped them in ketchup …

No, it’s not weird at all ..

“The Original” Grilled Stickie Bun | $2.55

I shared half of this with Liliana. It was really good, really stickie. But too sweet!

We toured all over the place around campus.

Then we went to get some sweets!

Berkey Creamery
119 Food Science Building
University Park, Pennsylvania 16802
(814) 865-7535
www.creamery.psu.edu

Alumni Swirl [vanilla ice cream with swiss mocha chips & blueberry swirl] | $3.95

I think that was the price. I’m not a big fan of ice cream and it gave me a heart attack that it was this big! Three scoops? I was hoping for half a scoop.

Nonetheless, it was delicious. Jakob got the same flavor as me. That’s my face of fear. Ice cream coma.

We all went shopping a little bit then back to the apartment to rest up.

Then came the THONventure.

THON Opening Night … geezes. So amazing.

Inspirational. One day, this will be FTK.

I bought food at the BJC while waiting. Chicken tenders with fries and the THON Theme cup. So excited.

Breathtaking. Unbelievable. We stayed all the way until they finished the Line Dance. It was hella long but so worth it being there and being able to live it.

We road the bus back to The Corner for dinner.

New England Clam Chowder [a rich creamy soup made with Meyer Dairy cream with chopped clams, potatoes, vegetables, & bacon.] | $2.50

Mashed Potatoes with Gravy | $1.95

So good. I love The Corner Store.

We went back to the hotel and hung out sang songs and talked. It was great and getting to know them was that much better. I feel more connected to everyone on this trip.

Three different situations made me annoyed and such but in the end, it doesn’t matter. What happened has happened and all I can do is pretend everything is okay.

Day 2, check! Tomorrow we have plans to go down on the floor of THON. I’m excited. My friend is in Hospitality on the floor where she helps feed the dancers. Hopefully she’s free when I’m down there so I can give her a quick hug and hello.

Hope everyone’s weekend started out amazingly! Open-mouthed smile