Mellie Dee ♥

It’s October! Not much is going on in October for me but it’s October nonetheless.

New month, new beginnings.

Therefore last night I texted him and asked if there was anyway we could still be friends in which he replied, “of course there is.” That was a relief. I’m certain it’s a little weird right now for him since we haven’t talked in so long. Since around the end of February. I realized that he never once made me unhappy and he always knew what to say to make me smile when I was sad. Those are the best friendships, right? And it’ll mean so much to me and make me so happy if I could have it back. Fingers crossed.

Anyway, today was my first day of training for this one software I will be using at work. And I got to do it at Halliburton! I felt like a real grown up going to training. But especially because it’s at Halliburton. Is that sad?

I’m a bit familiar with the program already so I felt I was back in computer class my senior year of high school. The teacher talks for a little bit and then you do the exercise out of the book. Easy peasy. Given I don’t know every detail about it … hence the class.

They have a cool break room that has unlimited drinks, coffee, fruits, breakfast, and desserts … and a gorgeous view.

I looked out that window during lunch. It was so peaceful. I didn’t want to leave and go back to class.

I also took some strawberries and a parfait while reading on my Kindle Fire.

I cannot wait till Wednesday when I go back to my usual schedule. The whole waking up late and coming home late isn’t doing well for me.

I hope y’all had a great Monday!

I had a great time catching up with some of my friends. Seeing them and getting to just be there was a blessing.

Sadly I didn’t get to see everyone. I had to give up seeing some people whether I wanted to or not. If I had the chance to go back I would have said “Fu*k it” and went with my gut even if it meant being scared and awkward … let me explain.

While driving back from S.A., I realized I miss having one of my friendships. Given at the time we only knew each other for a good few months, he was one of my best guy friends. For some reason it just felt normal and right to tell him everything about me … almost everything. Some stupid Melissa moments happened and we didn’t get to the part where if I told him some things he would understand so much more. You know how it is. Fear got in the way. If I had the chance for a redo, I would. Keep those stupid Melissa moments to myself so I could keep that friendship. He invited me to go to his party Saturday night but got scared because I don’t know who was going to be there and if it was going to be awkward. Ride issues as well. Other than him sending me a few songs here and there (which I always for some reason love because he picks some good songs) we don’t talk like we use to. If possible, I would like to have that friendship again but I’m not sure how to tell him or how he feels. Maybe I could of done so if I went to the party but now it’s too late. I’m pondering and pondering about it but I think I will be doing it soon. Rather know if he wants to still be friends then sit and wonder, right?

He has my blog but I’m certain he doesn’t read it anymore. Only reason I have the balls to write this on here.

A reminder to myself to never give up on a friendship or anything for that matter because of fear. You will regret it.

I hope you all had a good weekend!

Tomorrow I have to go to training instead of work. Yippee. Hopefully it’s not boring.

I’ve been in San Antonio since 6:20pm.

Yes. I hauled ass here right after work. Ugh work. I was stuck in two two hour + meetings. A break long enough for lunch. Don’t even get me started. Some people talk too dang much …

Anyway, my night has already been filled with tears and laughter.

Tears: I made sure to get here so I can make it to FTK Movie Night … featuring THON from Penn State. Why they THON and the reason why I gave my life to FTK. I cried pretty much throughout their documentary. Memories. I’m not much of a toucher but those long ass hugs can bring me to tears because I can feel that they miss me and you don’t get much of those anymore.

Laughter: Just being around these people again. They bring me back to life. And these new memories will stay forever. I’m so thankful for all the friendships I’ve made here. We can say “Remember when …” with a few words and laugh our heads off. Memories. And just seeing my advisors and we can still talk and laugh … that’s hard to come by nowadays as well.

So thankful.

I’m currently sleeping in Gary’s living room on an air mattress. First time on one and it feels so funky. Like a waterbed. hehe He and Matthew H. are already asleep but oh gosh … they are so cute and I am so glad I’m getting to know Matt more! I was even comfortable enough to play my guitar and sing to him … with Gary there of course.

Excited for what’s to come so there’s a possible no updates or anything from me. Therefore, enjoy your weekend and I hope it’s filled with laughter and happiness.

Stay Positive & Think Good Thoughts!

Peace & Love

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