Haha jk! I’ve never had a Sunday Funday. Just me and my little poop face chilling before my workout. Best workout partner in the world. He always falls asleep. I think he’s trying to tell me the sooner I finish, the faster I get to shower and cuddle with him.

I showed Mum and June a video and it mentioned how Asians have flat butts which striked a very weird conversation about how me and my siblings don’t have flat butts. hahaha! I do remember getting my first big booty compliment in college and that was also the day I decided I’m only going to wear baggy basketball shorts to play in. I don’t think I have a booty but I know if it wasn’t for that car accident where I had to stop working out, I might still have a whittle bitty one. Sigh. I miss my tan skin when I got to play every single intermural sport and spent hours on the fields/courts during college. Simpler times.

At Katie’s birthday last night we were talking about going to Hawaii together since United was having $500 round trip tickets. And since all of them are coupled up except for me and Tim, we decided we would share a room if he was able to bring Destiny. haha Him and his games … so dumb. Sadly, by the time we looked, the prices were already going up. We are still thinking of doing a cousins only trip together but we’re not sure where now.

It’s weird how I’ve been surrounded by so many people these past few days and still feel the loneliest I’ve been in a while. It’s always been hard for me to share things that bother me if I know they cannot help me. I feel like I’m bothering or burdening them or just straight out complaining. And the one I usually talk to about these things have their own crap to deal with. There’s just so much. I feel too much. I care too much. And I just want to make others happy. And I feel every time one thing is completed/fixed, another one pops up needing my attention when I have my own problems to deal with. Black hole that I can’t dig out of. I’m usually fine when all of this is going on but lately I’m just tired of it all. I just want to give up but it’s not in my nature; and that in itself stresses me out. I don’t know why I am this way right now.

But overall, even after being how I’m being, it was a good weekend filled with family and friends and laughter. I just need my alone time and maybe then, everything will be okay.

Hope everyone is having a great Saturday. I love Wong Fu Productions and thought I’d share one of their videos. Enjoy!

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Today marks 3 years at my current job. Things have changed a lot since then and I’ve changed a lot as well. New management, new coworkers, etc. The laughter is less and there are more uncertainties every month but I’m still trudging along. I’m always hoping for the best but whatever does come my way, I know it’ll be okay.

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I saw this quote on my friend’s Instagram and it was perfect. I know I have trust issues but those doubts shouldn’t be carried over. They should stay in the past and I know that. I tend to forget because of not wanting to get hurt again whether it be with just a friendship or a relationship.

I knew about Julia Sheer’s The Hardest Thing but I just found out Tyler Ward was the original composer. Julia just made it her own with her own words to answer his questions in his song. It’s things like that that makes me happy. Their raw feelings all in a song and speaking through music. Sucks though because they’re not together anymore and she deleted her original video off her YouTube. But I mean … it’s been so many years now … they could still have a chance, no? Hopeless romantic over here. Anyway, the two songs if you’re curious.

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I received a notification that it’s been two years since I’ve moved to my own domains … even though I’ve been slacking more since. I don’t remember what was going through my head when I was like “Let’s tell strangers about my life!” All I do remember was having so many things happening that I couldn’t control during college and needed an outlet. And I forgot how much peace I found in doing so. I’ve “met” some pretty wonderful people on here and even though we don’t all blog anymore, it’s nice to still be a part of each other’s lives through other social media. Sounds creepy, I know. I do want to attend a meet up one day but every meet up here in Houston has been almost an hour away. Yikes. So until it’s closer to me, I doubt I’ll make the trek.

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Doctor’s appointment went semi-well. All my levels are good but could be better. I need to be better at taking all my meds because I tend to only do the one that doesn’t make me wanna vomit. I lost over 10 pounds since January’s check up which might not seem like a lot buttttttttt when you’re me with my problems, it’s a lot. So I’m happy! I told him about my tummy issues. He says it could be stress or it could be because I’ve lost weight and need a lesser dose so we’re gonna do that and if it doesn’t go away then I’ll have to see some gastro doctor person. Yay! More doctors! My favourite! At least this time around they didn’t tell me I was dying soon.

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Three years ago today my high school best friend got married to the love of her life. I only remember because it showed up on my TimeHop. Unfortunately they never made it to 3 years since they recently divorced. It seems so common these days and it sucks. I don’t believe in divorce. I believe in talking through it and making it work and loving each other through the differences. I understand if it’s a big deal like abuse but for all the other matters – you take them as they are and work through it even through hurtful words. That’s the reason you got married in the first place. You couldn’t see yourself with anyone else but that one person and would do anything to make that person your all. I don’t understand relationships or marriages if people can just break up or divorce so easily. This generation has gotten so lazy. They won’t work for anything and just give up and move on to the next.

Found this old picture by Googling our studio name. Teehee Last night’s studio session flowed better. We joked it had to do with the fact John was in Germany but in reality, convincing Ed to move people to different positions on the crew helped. Because of that people were more attentive and willing to listen to direction. Is it bad to compliment myself on that? Bahaha I wish I got paid doing that. Just giving advice and direction; studio managing. Would be an awesome job. But in all honesty, if they were going for another season, I don’t think I’ll be around as much. It’s very time consuming but also because there’s this one dude there that makes me uncomfortable.