This is me all the time except I do text back.

I haven’t had time to update the blog these past few days due to my workload BUT! my hard work paid off. This post isn’t to show off or anything. I’m just very happy that this is the first time since I started on this team, I feel like I was of use and not dead weight.

After weeks of putting together an initiative I deemed would be useful for one of the subteams I support, we got a sign off to proceed with the prototyping phase yesterday. This is a huge accomplishment in a world where people are not fond of changes nor spending time to make those changes to better efficiency and data quality.

One hour before a quarterly business meeting with the boss’s boss, I was tasked to run our team meeting since my boss, Maria, was going to be late. I chased after every team member for their parts and slapped it together in a presentation. It was a whirlwind but we got it done. I always knew I could work under pressure but that was really pushing it.

But the real validation came from seeing a product I put together in use the way it’s intended because they’re starting to trust the data. Seeing them constantly referring to the tool during their meeting made my heart happy because months spent on this product did not go to waste.

I’m on a high that this week, though it’s been crazy, has been one of the best ones I’ve had since I started on this team. I’m hoping that things stay this high for a while, at least until way after my vacation that’s coming up is over. That shouldn’t be too hard, right?

I used to go to The Joint for chiropractic adjustments since they wouldn’t break the bank and Scruffy would tell me how they weren’t real doctors and they could break my back instead. I got scared and never went again but now that my insurance covers a big portion of it, I went to my first legit one this morning and it was euphoric, to say the least.

I had an assessment then an adjustment (freaking ASMR with the popping), electroshock therapy, and stretches on the machines. The lady assisting my stretches was shocked at how flexible I am. The machine only went to 110 degrees and I could go past it. I can do splits so it was a given. The last part was possibly my favourite. I laid on this table where a rolling punch machine goes up and down your spine in sections. I loved when it hit my lower back.

I go back next Friday for an evaluation on how much has changed in a week. Hopefully, we can decide on once a month but if I have to come back every week, I probably wouldn’t mind. I also found out that he opened his practice on May 15th 30 years ago, 2 days after my birth. How crazy is that! It was meant to be!

I went to Sissy’s with Bruno and Kato bombarding my personal space as I put in some studies. They are so much better looking after their haircuts, don’t y’all think?

I took an Uber and met up with Salim, Vicky, and Justin at The Conservatory. Salim and I don’t work with them anymore so it was nice to band together and catch up. Soon, we were all walking back to “the office” together, bumping into Fahad and Tayeb. After a brief catch up, Joel showed up and we all disbanded as he and I walked to Starbucks for our catch up. We didn’t notice two hours had passed so we rushed back to his office for him to pick up his things while I wrote notes for Prisila and Noah. He was nice enough to take me back to Sissy’s instead of having to call another Uber.

The senior interns did their presentations last week to the owners of the company, higher-ups, etc. There’s a part where they have to mention one person that impacted them while they were at the company and Guisseppi chose me. ME! I was only a supervisor for less than four months so it’s shocking to me.

Many people may not know who she is since she is no longer an employee here but I chose her because I was very shy and she got me to come out of my shell. She was bubbly and easy to talk to, greeted me and asked me how I was doing to make sure every part of my life was okay, patiently taught me everything I know, and is just genuinely a nice and caring person.

Paraphrased from Joel who paraphrased from Guisseppi’s presentation

My heart, guys. MY HEART. If you go to my bucket list, you’d see “54. Make a difference in someone’s life”. I’m sure I’ve done this before, but to hear it, and for that person to announce it to “the world” makes my heart so happy. I also heard that the b*tch who gave me hell every single day I was there has tried adopting my personality but I’m told, no one is buying it.

This was a long post, but I wanted it to look back on one day so if you read it all, kudos to you! My heart is so full, and my back, though sore from the adjustment, is not in pain. It has legitimately been a great day.

Tomorrow would be a month since Scruffy and I met up to see the pups and no matter how much I wish I could see pictures and videos of Luna’s derpy face, I know that I can’t until he’s ready.

I’d like to trust him when he said he’d like to get to a point where we can both talk to one another again without all the emotions when he reached out today.

In the future, if either one of us reaches out to one another, I can only hope that we both respond with a friendly heart.

An end does not have to be the end.

-Najwa Zebian, Sparks of Phoenix

Today was my first OFFICIAL day at my new job. Erin was out sick so it was tough not having someone to talk to all day but I got a lot of work done. I’m just super excited that it’s my Friday off. I cannot wait. I’m not sure what I’ll be doing yet but a massage sounds super nice right about now. Maybe even a bit of shopping to update my wardrobe.

I also heard layoffs are happening at my old job and it makes me SO angry. They gave me an offer before I got the one I’m at now. If they knew layoffs were happening, why did they offer me a full-time position? It’s a little ridiculous and I’m glad I left when I did. I miss the people but the company wasn’t doing well and my boss wasn’t a great one. She’s cool to talk to but work was a different story. I wish everyone the best and that they all make it out alive.

This has literally been me since Scruffy and I broke up. Add on songwriting, singing, guitar playing, and visiting friends and that would be me to a T. It’s been a hard trying to find myself again now that I don’t have the other half attached to me at all times. I don’t have someone to rely on and someone to help me through my days but I’d like to believe I’ve grown a lot and that’s all that matters.

Apurva is getting married in April in New Jersey but flying into Pennsylvania is much cheaper and closer. I’ve been waiting for the right time to book the flights and this morning I did just that along with the hotel. It’ll be my first trip flying solo and I’m glad I get half a day or so to spend with Apurva before all the festivities start. I’m also super happy Liliana agreed to be my date and is willing to drive so many freaking hours to see me and about our road trip back to her now hometown after the wedding so that she can show me around. She joked that she’ll be my stand-in date just in case I find a boy in time. That’s obviously not going to happen and if it did, I still would not miss a chance to spend quality time with her! Time to plan our road trip, Lily! New memories here we come!