This break I found out something I didn’t have to know – didn’t want to know. Knowing sucks. Sometimes it’s not so great when someone trusts you enough. Especially when it involves cutting.

The only thing I can do is do everything in my might to make you stop which means texting you all the time to make sure you have someone to talk to and trusting you when you tell me you aren’t cutting.

My life flipped upside down yesterday because of you. But all I can do is put on a happy face and pretend everything is okay.

Going out last night with the boys and tonight for Sarah’s birthday should have taken my mind off of you and your problems but I worry. I worry that you might fall back into the same routine.

Today I wished I could take a day off from being everyone’s psychiatrist sometimes. Especially when I’m going through my own things. Things that I put on padlock because sometimes I feel my problems aren’t as important as everything in the world.

Who can I talk to when knowing is too much? Who can I tell my problems too?

I cannot fix everyone’s problems no matter how much I wish I could. I hope that it can be different with you but you’re making it harder and harder with each passing minute …

Aw poop.

My sissy texted me today saying that she was reading a blog and saw something of mine and looked it up.

Now she knows my blog!

AHHHH! I have to censor everything I say now.

The last few days I’ve lost my appetite. I would only eat once a day. I’m falling back into that pattern which is horrible because I don’t want to go through that again. I’m pushing myself to eat but it just makes me feel all bleugh. Hopefully it’ll pass.

Tomorrow’s Friday! You all must be super excited!

Rocky got to sleep in my room the last few nights. He would climb onto my extra bed that’s in my room then into his own bed. He so cute!

We dropped Rocky at the vet’s for his check up on Monday and on the way back it was flooding like crazy. The water pretty much came up to more than half my tires. Eep.

I’m such a safe driver that I can take pictures during a time like this …

A package came to my front steps! Rocky started sniffing it. Stinkin’ cute!

Michelle, Stephanie, and I met up last night and we got drinks. I got the Half and Half (Harp Lager and Guinness).

It was also bingo night. We got there for the last round = blackout. I was very excited. I’ve always wanted to play grown up bingo! I lost though … obviously.

I’ve been back to San Antonio as of 11:30am. I went to work on some FTK stuff until 7:30pm then hung out with Andrew C., Eric S., and a guy I just met, Paul. We had drinks and dinner at Flying Saucer then went and played pool. Teams of two … 3 out of 5. We = Andrew and I, lost. Of course. Anyone who’s ever on my team will lose …

Yesterday, after lunch the parents, June, and I went to a liquor store that had their grand opening that morning.

The design of their shop is pretty cool. I liked their cashier right in the middle. It kind of reminded me of Hong Kong jewelers.

June and I picked out Japanese beer and Sake!

 

While my dad went for the Remy Martin XO. I didn’t want to take out the bottle so I took a pic of the box. It came with a free one as well (right). Sweet. I already claimed that one so maybe we’ll open that when I graduate or something.

Dinner tonight was only June and I. We had hotpot while watching a movie. Don’t worry. We were no where near finishing ALL that food.

We also took out our Japanese Beer and Sake. June got a little drunk … it was funny.

Time to Dance Central off all that food!

Today Sissy and Brett invited us to their place. Ross went back to his homeland for a few days and so they invited the family. The parents didn’t go though so it was only me and June.

We watched Super 8 while some food was cooking in the slow cooker. Plus it was only 3pm. I thought I would hate the movie but it was actually pretty interesting. I was holding a big glass of water and something popped up out of nowhere. I spilled it all over June and the couch and somehow missed myself …

We also played some kind of game called Move from the Playstation? Fun ish. Then dinner was served.

Brown rice with steamed mixed vegetables and slow cooker Asian chicken made my Brett.

Sissy made broccoli cheese soup. I added a little bit of saltines on top.

Mmm … everything was delicious!

Sissy also made dessert. Cake Batter Bars. YUM! Find the recipe and make this NOW! So good.

Then we played the most confusing game ever. Phase10. My brother and I bought it for Brett for Christmas. He loves it. At the end we all understood the game. I’m happy to report, I won! Now I kind of want to buy the game but it’s hell trying to explain the game.

I went home and had half a beer. The other half, I gave to my mum.

Yep our tree is still up.

I was suppose to hang out with Michelle, Nicole, and Stephanie tonight but it was hard making the choice of staying with family or going to see my friends. I am hoping I will get to see them before I leave though. Here’s to hoping.

Back to watching Dance Academy. It’s on Netflix and it’s by Australian people! I love their accent and all the guys are pretty hot in their own way.