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I received a notification that it’s been two years since I’ve moved to my own domains … even though I’ve been slacking more since. I don’t remember what was going through my head when I was like “Let’s tell strangers about my life!” All I do remember was having so many things happening that I couldn’t control during college and needed an outlet. And I forgot how much peace I found in doing so. I’ve “met” some pretty wonderful people on here and even though we don’t all blog anymore, it’s nice to still be a part of each other’s lives through other social media. Sounds creepy, I know. I do want to attend a meet up one day but every meet up here in Houston has been almost an hour away. Yikes. So until it’s closer to me, I doubt I’ll make the trek.

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Doctor’s appointment went semi-well. All my levels are good but could be better. I need to be better at taking all my meds because I tend to only do the one that doesn’t make me wanna vomit. I lost over 10 pounds since January’s check up which might not seem like a lot buttttttttt when you’re me with my problems, it’s a lot. So I’m happy! I told him about my tummy issues. He says it could be stress or it could be because I’ve lost weight and need a lesser dose so we’re gonna do that and if it doesn’t go away then I’ll have to see some gastro doctor person. Yay! More doctors! My favourite! At least this time around they didn’t tell me I was dying soon.

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Three years ago today my high school best friend got married to the love of her life. I only remember because it showed up on my TimeHop. Unfortunately they never made it to 3 years since they recently divorced. It seems so common these days and it sucks. I don’t believe in divorce. I believe in talking through it and making it work and loving each other through the differences. I understand if it’s a big deal like abuse but for all the other matters – you take them as they are and work through it even through hurtful words. That’s the reason you got married in the first place. You couldn’t see yourself with anyone else but that one person and would do anything to make that person your all. I don’t understand relationships or marriages if people can just break up or divorce so easily. This generation has gotten so lazy. They won’t work for anything and just give up and move on to the next.

Found this old picture by Googling our studio name. Teehee Last night’s studio session flowed better. We joked it had to do with the fact John was in Germany but in reality, convincing Ed to move people to different positions on the crew helped. Because of that people were more attentive and willing to listen to direction. Is it bad to compliment myself on that? Bahaha I wish I got paid doing that. Just giving advice and direction; studio managing. Would be an awesome job. But in all honesty, if they were going for another season, I don’t think I’ll be around as much. It’s very time consuming but also because there’s this one dude there that makes me uncomfortable.

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August is here which means cooler weather. When I took Rizzo out this morning I could feel the cool weather on my skin and it was grand. I can feel it! I can feel it!! Eeepsicord! I is so excited if you can’t tell.

August also means pretty clothes! Semi-pretty clothes because although I like dressing up from time to time, I’m not a girly girl … and because I’m poor as fuuuuuu. Hello dresses and tunics and tights and boots and scarves! And speaking of clothes, I was looking for dresses for some events and I realized I have a lot of clothes I don’t wear anymore. I cannot wait to clean out my closet!

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I wasn’t able to get food down in my system for over a week without getting nauseous and then some. It was nothing as extreme as you see above. In front of others I would eat and pretend I’m fine when I wasn’t. Don’t want those pesky questions I usually get in the past.

Luckily today I was able to keep some down. I just have to keep my food simple for a while. Damn stomach. Maybe I have IBS. bahaha Or maybe I built up a super sensitive stomach. At least those headaches I use to get once a month only comes once every few now.

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I forgot how much I miss writing just to write when things didn’t make sense in my head. It was always a simple outlet for my overthinking brain. That’s the reason why you’ve seen a lot of password protected posts lately. I am the type of person that likes to think things through before doing anything because I don’t want to mess anything up. But this time around, I didn’t think much and acted on it and now I feel it’s too late. I feel like he’s already gone.

I wish I could of said the things I wanted to say maybe then he’d understand my thoughts better. I wish we had time to actually talk it through instead of a few simple lines. I’ve been so busy with weddings and wanting to spend time with that someone that I’ve just forgotten how to do me. I forgot how to balance myself and that was partly the problem.

The song I mentioned before is coming along. I haven’t found a tune I quite like but I already know how I want it to be sung … if that makes any sense. People tend to ask me how I write them and to tell you the truth, I’m not too sure. I’ve only written a handful and they’re usually about the same person. It doesn’t sound great at all. It’s just pretty much me telling a story. I usually start with words then find a tune I like and fix up the words if it didn’t fit right.

I wish I was better with my instrumentals because then maybe they’ll actually sound like a song where I’d feel comfortable to show it to others. I think I’ve only shown two songs to a handful of people. My usual “songs” lasts for about 5 minutes. Normal songs lasts around 3 minutes. I don’t know how to shut up, obviously.

So those are some things that are going on as of late. I like that I’m semi-updating almost daily. I’m not saying it’s going to happen because mostly it’ll still be password protected, but I’m liking speaking to the world of unknowns again even though the world of unknowns equals to just me, myself, and I.

Until next time,