Haha jk! I’ve never had a Sunday Funday. Just me and my little poop face chilling before my workout. Best workout partner in the world. He always falls asleep. I think he’s trying to tell me the sooner I finish, the faster I get to shower and cuddle with him.
I showed Mum and June a video and it mentioned how Asians have flat butts which striked a very weird conversation about how me and my siblings don’t have flat butts. hahaha! I do remember getting my first big booty compliment in college and that was also the day I decided I’m only going to wear baggy basketball shorts to play in. I don’t think I have a booty but I know if it wasn’t for that car accident where I had to stop working out, I might still have a whittle bitty one. Sigh. I miss my tan skin when I got to play every single intermural sport and spent hours on the fields/courts during college. Simpler times.
At Katie’s birthday last night we were talking about going to Hawaii together since United was having $500 round trip tickets. And since all of them are coupled up except for me and Tim, we decided we would share a room if he was able to bring Destiny. haha Him and his games … so dumb. Sadly, by the time we looked, the prices were already going up. We are still thinking of doing a cousins only trip together but we’re not sure where now.
It’s weird how I’ve been surrounded by so many people these past few days and still feel the loneliest I’ve been in a while. It’s always been hard for me to share things that bother me if I know they cannot help me. I feel like I’m bothering or burdening them or just straight out complaining. And the one I usually talk to about these things have their own crap to deal with. There’s just so much. I feel too much. I care too much. And I just want to make others happy. And I feel every time one thing is completed/fixed, another one pops up needing my attention when I have my own problems to deal with. Black hole that I can’t dig out of. I’m usually fine when all of this is going on but lately I’m just tired of it all. I just want to give up but it’s not in my nature; and that in itself stresses me out. I don’t know why I am this way right now.
But overall, even after being how I’m being, it was a good weekend filled with family and friends and laughter. I just need my alone time and maybe then, everything will be okay.