I’m currently at Sissy’s. Tomorrow I fly out to see Apurva and then a couple of days after, Liliana. I am excited to see them both as it’s been a long time. Road trip here we come!
On my drive to Sissy’s I realized some things. For eight months I made this gruesome drive to and from downtown for work. I guess I never really knew how tired and overworked I was spending over three hours in traffic daily sometimes. I mean, you’d think the horrible car accident would have been a red flag but I’m thankful I’m alive.
One of the things I realized these last few months was how depressed I was at that job. The drive, feeling like my career was a dead end and I wasn’t amounting to anything, and driving to Scruffy’s almost every weekend and even some weekdays. I would always want to take a nap whenever I got to his house so that I could give him 100% when I was refreshed. I remember him getting angry at me for taking naps when I was there to see him and I’ve realized that he never took the time to realize or even ask how I was doing.
I guess that’s where it took a toll on me. I tried so hard to give everyone 100% that I forgot about myself. No one was giving me 100%. I didn’t have alone time. I didn’t have time to recharge. I felt like my world was crumbling and I couldn’t do it anymore. I just needed a break from reality because no one understood me. And I knew only I can help myself.
This job is also pretty gruesome with the hours I put in but I feel like I matter and that I am actually putting in hours where value is added. My ideas are being heard and things are actually going better than I expected. I’ve always been a workaholic and being able to actually prove myself in that front helps.
Today was my Boss’ birthday. Wacko, Erin, Chris, Phil and I decided to take her out to celebrate since we’ve been so busy we haven’t really had time to relax. She suggested Sylvia’s near work and my goodness … they made one of the best carne asada I’ve ever had! So freaking tender! We got the waiters to surprise her and sing happy birthday so that was a fun memory we had especially since she was really freaked out about it.
Here’s to more happy memories.
Stay Positive & Think Good Thoughts!
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