If you’ve been reading my blog since the beginning of time, you know I never really write a post without a picture and I don’t open up like a lot of people do in the blogosphere. But I think I’m starting to open up. Yikes.
If you know me, you’ll know I get every other Friday off from work. Well it so happens I’ve been having every Friday off (until the end of the year) thanks to not really taking vacations all year long. As great as it is not having to work, it’s also not so great. I try not to go out and spend money so I can save it for more important things like school loans.
But this past weekend made me realize how lazy I’ve truly been. I use to spend every waking moment for the purpose of helping others. Now it just seems all I do is sit in front of the computer because my job and my teeny tiny self employed job demands it. I’ve lost my way since I joined the adult world a little over a year ago. I had more time in college to do the things I love. I feel that I’m just living life but not truly living my life.
This is me trying to do what I love again so I don’t lose myself. I’m not 100% sure how but I know focusing more on what I love will help. Such as my workouts. Somewhere along the way I fell off the wagon (more like broke the wagon from gaining weight) and before I knew it the year’s almost over. I starting taking the stairs instead of the elevator at work as much as I can and I’ve been getting back on the workout train and though it’s been a struggle, I’m proud of the accomplishment I’ve made so far.
The blog is obviously on my list as well. I’ve invested money into this blog and seeing it on the backburner is my fault. I’m always hesitant to write what I really feel with the sense of someone actually finding out how crazy I am and seeing the failure that I am. But I’m going to try to open up more. Not just the happy go lucky stories but sometimes, the deep ones so that I can talk myself through things. I hope y’all are okay with that once in a while.
I am not sure what else will be on my list but hopefully once I find my balance, everything else falls into place.
Aww Melissa don’t be too hard on yourself though! You are AMAZING. Remember that 🙂
Thank you! You’re amazing yourself!
I know how you feel! It’s tough to keep up with everything and really do what you love. You’ll get the hang of it again!! Rooting for you!
Thanks girlie! I really miss college life and just living with ease. Even though I was busy all the time with school, organizations, and volunteering I still had time to do what I love. Enjoy your senior year!!
Aww, I’m right there with you girl. I know how hard it can be to find a balance between work, bills, food/exercise, and doing the things that make you happy. But, when it’s all said and done, that last thing is always the most important. I’ve found that when I’m really focusing on being positive, filling my life with things/people that make me smile, and spreading that joy wherever I go, everything else takes care of itself. So never, ever feel bad for putting yourself first.
And I know how scary it is to open up via your blog but I think the personal posts are the most beautiful. You begin to realize how many people are experiencing the exact same things that you are.
Sending love your way! xoxo
Your words area always so powerful to me, Emily. You really do help build my bliss and I thank you for that. Your posts are so inspirational. Slowly opening up so keep a lookout for more of those. 😉
I’m so glad you posted this!!! I am also sooooo jazzed it helped you. Funny how writing can help so much! I love that you are getting back onto the workout train, that is such a monumental part of my life and I ALWAYS feel so much better when I up my workouts. Nothing like a FREE, and natural HIGH!
You motivate me to workout more when I see your running pictures and posts! So thank YOU! Don’t stop! You’re my secret motivator! haha