After over 700 posts, you’d think I’ll have better titles…
I didn’t know my last post was public until I received these two quote poster thingies (above & below) telling me to never give up. With the words written out, my thoughts are less jumbled. The weight is off my chest and I’m able to breathe again. I am hopeful there won’t be any more future triggers but if it happens, I’ll learn from it so I can move on. I won’t push it aside so it could destroy anything else.
For what I did mess up, if we both believe we can go back to how we were, we’d have to work on rebuilding our friendship first – even if that’s all we can ever be. It doesn’t seem he wants to but because I trust him and his words to be genuine, I’m giving him his space and time. I’ve taken a step back to not overthink and to care a little less. And that’s all I can do.
Work has been on full mode since Friday. And I’m already stressed about the projects piling up. To split my time 50/50 between 2 teams is hard when there are deadlines.
Speaking of jobs, I had an interview/offer but I declined. It would of been a pretty cool to go to the rigs once in a while and fly to other states but … who would want to move to Oklahoma? Lame. Why is only Oklahoma and Houston looking for me? Come on Colorado! haha I’m not too sure if I would up and move but if the opportunity presented itself pretty well, I might just take it.
Yesterday after work, I went to get alterations for a dress because fat girl over here. I was having issues with the bust area not zipping up. And when the lady went to do her thing she gave me a weird look and … zipped it up! WTF. How? Gahhh I was so happy. I wasn’t able to take deep breaths and I had to stand very straight but … it zipped! haha I was even tall enough with my heels that I didn’t need to hem. It was a pretty rad feeling walking out. So that’s an accomplishment for the year.
Hopefully by the time I need to wear it, it’ll be better fitted. Now I just need to starve myself for a little over the next 2 months. haha jk … maybe.
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