By the time I let Riz out and ran my errands Friday, I arrived to World of Beer late. Sammy was already there waiting. Whoops. We spent two hours or so there talking about random things while people watching per usual. And when I got home, I saw the card Liliana had sent me. She’s known a lot of things haven’t been that great with me and her words meant the world to me. I wish she was closer. She’s currently in Mexico for a family vacation so I can’t even talk to her. Sigh.
Right after, I got a call from an old friend. We haven’t spoken in four years because the last time we did, I told him I had to walk away from our friendship unless he got help. And as he spoke, I burst into tears like a baby. As more and more people urged him, he started to realize and now he’s all better. He called to thank me. I’m not sure what I did but knowing I was able to help somehow is the best feeling ever. It’s been a long time coming and I’m happy for him. I just hope he stays on the right path and don’t fall back into his old ways.
I was starting to think this week was better than I thought until I get a text from Thing One saying I had better not be lying about Thing Two and one second later, Thing Two texts me pissed. I called Thing One because wtf … I don’t know how to fix all of this and it’s just a big mess now. Thing One tells me to stop crying and wouldn’t believe me when I told him it had nothing to do with this … understandable because I have been crying a lot lately. He tells me to leave it alone and that it’ll blow over. But I just don’t think things will go back to the way it was.
Thing One and I didn’t do anything wrong other than me telling Thing One. I know Thing Two is angry he got caught for starting things. But I got my answer this morning when I find Thing Two has deleted me off all his social media. I texted him to say that I don’t want all of this to be the reason we’re not friends anymore or for there to be hard feelings and he responded with how he’s already told me not to contact him unless it was about work. So there is my answer. I’m leaving it alone even though it kills me.
I was able to get my mind off of everything yesterday by hanging out with my friends and talking about random crap but after his response and knowing it can’t be fixed, all I’m worried about is work. If he’s able to still be professional then great but if not then it’ll be hell.
Family and friends have always been my number one most important thing. And one of my fears is losing people in my life. No matter what happens or what others do to me, I always try to forgive and will always be there no matter what so it kills me that a ship breaks. It kills me not being able to fix things and for a friendship to just die. Maybe Thing One is right and Thing Two will get over it but at the moment that seems like it’ll never be. And I’ll have to try my best to not let it affect me.
I wish everything went back to how it was. I just want everything to be okay. I just need to go back to my bubble.