August is here which means cooler weather. When I took Rizzo out this morning I could feel the cool weather on my skin and it was grand. I can feel it! I can feel it!! Eeepsicord! I is so excited if you can’t tell.
August also means pretty clothes! Semi-pretty clothes because although I like dressing up from time to time, I’m not a girly girl … and because I’m poor as fuuuuuu. Hello dresses and tunics and tights and boots and scarves! And speaking of clothes, I was looking for dresses for some events and I realized I have a lot of clothes I don’t wear anymore. I cannot wait to clean out my closet!
I wasn’t able to get food down in my system for over a week without getting nauseous and then some. It was nothing as extreme as you see above. In front of others I would eat and pretend I’m fine when I wasn’t. Don’t want those pesky questions I usually get in the past.
Luckily today I was able to keep some down. I just have to keep my food simple for a while. Damn stomach. Maybe I have IBS. bahaha Or maybe I built up a super sensitive stomach. At least those headaches I use to get once a month only comes once every few now.
I forgot how much I miss writing just to write when things didn’t make sense in my head. It was always a simple outlet for my overthinking brain. That’s the reason why you’ve seen a lot of password protected posts lately. I am the type of person that likes to think things through before doing anything because I don’t want to mess anything up. But this time around, I didn’t think much and acted on it and now I feel it’s too late. I feel like he’s already gone.
I wish I could of said the things I wanted to say maybe then he’d understand my thoughts better. I wish we had time to actually talk it through instead of a few simple lines. I’ve been so busy with weddings and wanting to spend time with that someone that I’ve just forgotten how to do me. I forgot how to balance myself and that was partly the problem.
The song I mentioned before is coming along. I haven’t found a tune I quite like but I already know how I want it to be sung … if that makes any sense. People tend to ask me how I write them and to tell you the truth, I’m not too sure. I’ve only written a handful and they’re usually about the same person. It doesn’t sound great at all. It’s just pretty much me telling a story. I usually start with words then find a tune I like and fix up the words if it didn’t fit right.
I wish I was better with my instrumentals because then maybe they’ll actually sound like a song where I’d feel comfortable to show it to others. I think I’ve only shown two songs to a handful of people. My usual “songs” lasts for about 5 minutes. Normal songs lasts around 3 minutes. I don’t know how to shut up, obviously.
So those are some things that are going on as of late. I like that I’m semi-updating almost daily. I’m not saying it’s going to happen because mostly it’ll still be password protected, but I’m liking speaking to the world of unknowns again even though the world of unknowns equals to just me, myself, and I.
Until next time,